In My Life

Human relations is such a beautiful thing. I'm referring specifically to friendship.

Have you ever gotten to know someone and felt like you've known them forever after just a few conversations? It's like, if our lives aren't so busy and complicated, we would probably take the time to talk on forever about everything out there--everything in our lives, everything in the world.

This semester I've experience such friendship. I'm experiencing it, I should say. We had two conversations that probably lasted about 20 minutes each, and then we sorted of drifted apart (partly because of one little complication). But it's like the connection that formed quickly back then never faded away. When we get to talk even just a little, it's like we've known each other forever. I feel like I understand and appreciate the person the way others probably don't. I can be so open and honest, and I don't know if the feeling is mutual, but I really value this connection we have.

I'm reflecting on this because I'm really happy about today. I think we're getting closer once again.

I have such wonderful friends, even though I don't see any of them enough because of our busy lives and all. I used to think that the ideal version of myself is one that is completely independent, but in the past few years I've come to learn that I am happiest when I know that I have people I can rely on, not just when in trouble (I'm rarely in trouble) but to make me feel inspired and not lonely. It can be just from seeing little things on Facebook and whatnot. You know, just knowing they're there in your life, in some way or another.

People aren't meant to be alone. Believe me, I've experienced some very lonely years in the past 4 years. I can honestly say that life changed for the better because of the amazing people that walked into my life and those that I've gotten to know better throughout the years.

But I am scared of losing people from my life. I am scared of a new semester replacing my current life where I see people I see in my everyday life this semester. I know there are things that probably won't go away, but I'm afraid of little friendships turning into awkwardness.

But there is still time, and I'll live it and appreciate it, and I'll encode these wonderful days into my memory (with the help of great music--they really do help).

Aren't there times when you wish life could go on forever?

Anyway, bed time. I'm dead tired.

...Beatles' song reference in the post title. Awesome or what?